I do the things I do for me.
This is not a matter of selfishness. It’s a matter of self-care, and self-awareness.
I long ago recognized that life is always changing. Everything in this world evolves and changes, and it is up to each of us to choose to change or be changed by it.
More than once in this life I have come to a crossroads. A choice laid before me. Do I go for it, or make some other choices? When I do things, do I do for me, or someone else?
Frequently I have chosen either not to go for it, or not to do for me, but to do what I thought was expected of me, or what would help me keep friends, or prevent me from feeling abandoned. While I do not regret the choices I have made in this life along the way, I acknowledge that I spent much of the time stuck that I did because of them, or their lack.
There has been an inordinate amount of my life fearing abandonment. This manifested more clearly into an equal fear of success and fear of failure. Why? Because the fear was if I do well and kick ass, the people closest to me will not wish to be associated with me anymore. On the other side of the same coin, if I do poorly and lose, same problem.
As such, on more than one occasion I chose the safest, most comfortable path.
Except of course, there was no real comfort to be found there. I would hold down a boring job, dissatisfied with where I was and what I was doing. My relationships never lasted more than a couple years at best.
No time like the present to do what I do for me
It has always been my belief that there was more for me in this life. Sure, I have a decent life, but why shouldn’t I desire more? I am worthy and deserving of having awesome things.
I am going to do what I need to do for me, because it will empower me. When I feel empowered, I will be far more capable of helping to empower others. This is what I have always wanted to do, and though the how of it has scared my for a long time, I am not resisting.
Consciousness creates reality. I am aware that in the here and now, this one-and-only lifetime, I can choose to live life or let life live me. That’s why I have been writing fiction since I was nine. It is because of my deep, abiding love of writing that I blog three times a week. It may be a challenge at times, but it still makes me feel good. Words are my stock in trade, my art, my talent.
If I do for me, it is not a selfish act. I am not taking away from anyone else, nor am I doing anything that will lessen another’s experience. Nothing I do is intended to cause anyone hurt or harm. I write to inspire, and my podcast is intent on doing the same.
If you know me in person, you know that I can be something of a talker. I have a voice that belies my appearance, and which I have been told is strong and clear. Podcasting will give me an opportunity to spread the message of conscious reality creation, sharing Awareness for Everyone in order to connect, inspire, and help others who struggle as I do.
This is both scary and exciting.
I can do for me and do for you all at once
No matter what I write, my goal is to inspire, excite, and open minds and hearts. It is my hope that my fiction not only entertains, but encourages creative ideas. My non-fiction, I hope, will show others that we are never truly alone, and that we can be bigger than we are.
The podcast, I believe, can take this further. As a first test-run of recording, I read Pathwalking 350: Why Do We Compare Ourselves to Others? You can check out the link at the bottom of this post.
I do for me because it helps me do more for you, and anyone else I might be able to assist. We live in a pretty scary, uncertain world right now. There are some unsavory people who want to be greedy and hoard all the money and power for themselves, because either they believe we have a lot of lack and scarcity of these things, or they simply use that as a tool to make us fear.
But that is a lie. We live in an abundant universe. Yes, I know that can be hard to see, but that doesn’t make it any less true. That is why when I do for me, I take nothing away from you in the process.
When I do for me, I am out of my comfort zone
Just shifting a blog post to this website was unnerving for me. I am taking a lot of steps that will pull me out of my comfort zones. Yet I know that when all is said and done, this is how I am going to manifest the life I most desire. It is from taking the time to do for me that I empower myself to do amazing things.
I know that sharing this stuff may not seem too logical on the surface. But I believe, since I know I am not alone in this sort of struggle, that sharing my process as I am working through it is not without value. It is my hope that it will help you through your struggles, too.
Thank you for joining me. Please take a moment to explore the rest of the website, which I am working to evolve and change for the better…much like I am doing for myself.
This is the third entry of my personal blog. Please take a moment to check out the collection of my published writing, which can be found here.
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